Okay... just so you know, my mood has improved somewhat... not much, but somewhat... I am trying to focus on completely happy thoughts, like emails from my sister and the fact that I now have a Roman coin from AD 337-350... I even decided to create-and-nuture four new towns in my Sim City rather than build-and-destroy them all... I don't know how long that will last, but for now they can rest easy knowing that this Sim deity isn't going to blast them into oblivion...
I wish I knew what was making me so snippy-snappy... I'd say that it's the phase of the moon and would probably be partly correctly, especially since last night, when I threw the garbage out, the moon was quite ominously rust-coloured... maybe it's the compounding of years of homesickness... maybe it's envy of people who can have family vacations and see the world with people they love... maybe it's lack of a decent sleep or the fact that I have a gnawing craving for a kind of food that we don't have in the house and never ever will... maybe I'm just driving myself mad for something to break up the monotony... nah... I went crazy once, didn't like it...
I actually almost wonder if I just need to get outside and become one with the earth again... don't freak out... my idea of 'becoming one with the earth' is getting my drawing gear, a snack & a drink, and a soft tapestry rug to sit on, then heading out into some peopleless part of nature for a while to clear my soul by listening to nature's soundtrack while I make some hobby art... usually this involves sitting near water or a great many trees... historical places also help me out a lot... I used to love going to Fort Walsh and Batoche... still would if the option existed... but alas, I am far away from the places that I used to go to... and I haven't a clue where to find a good where I am now... this needs more pondering methinks... *sigh*
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